Posted 09 October 2017 - 10:30 AM
I can relate to some extent. I still enjoy the game regardless, but I definitely have trouble calling a day where I shot a bad round, a "great day", just because I was golfing. I'm grateful to be able to golf, physically, financially, etc. but I'm not as easily satisfied now.
Like you, I am streaky. That being said, to make sure I do enjoy the day, as long as it isn't one of those days where I'm just punishing my self, I always think about the fact that I don't play or practice enough to be any better at this game than I am. Now, not in any arrogant fashion, that works for me, because I've basically always gotten what I've put into the game. When I put the time in, and keep up on my swing, then I get better, but when I only get to play once a week and hit 30 range balls in a week, then I do realize that I won't play to the same level as the times I have the opportunity to get to the range a few times a week and play a couple times a week. That's also a down fall for me, because I'm very much a feel type player, and it's easy to lose your touch, or at least it is for me, when you don't keep up on it, especially the confidence.
I haven't played all that long, and haven't been in the mid-low single digits for more than a season, and it's tough to perform to that "level" all the time, and it's even harder to make yourself believe that.
This summer I started shooting closer to par for a few rounds, and then bought a house, and haven't gotten out much at all, and it's tough to not expect yourself to keep playing that well, but I know I can't expect it, and to get myself to enjoy the rounds more, I just convince myself to learn more from the mediocre rounds. Try new lines on the course, be less conservative in the places I lay up usually, or more conservative in the places that don't always pay off in those better rounds, etc. Basically, everything is just preparing for that random day where things come together, so I don't find myself guessing misc. things that hopeful, fateful day... lol
What's actually in the bag...
Callaway Epic SZ-9.0-Aldila X-Torsion Green Mamba-70TX
Callaway Epic SZ 15* - PX Handcrafted Yellow 75 6.5
Callaway Apex UT 21* - C- taper S+
Miura LH LTD Black Blades: 3-p w/ DG TI X7's.
Cleveland RTX 3: 50-54 w. C-Taper S+
Scratch 1018: 58 w/ C-Taper S+
Piretti Potenza / Odyssey MX #7
Others gamed on occasion:
Callaway BBA (2014)
Callaway 13 X Forged w/ AMT X100's (hard stepped once)
Scratch Golf 51,55,58,59
Wilson Staff Kirk Currie Milled